In a previous post I declared that I do not want to get old. That remains true. It then occurred to me that I needed to take a look at where I am in both my life and my station in the BDSM lifestyle. This requires a bit of background. I was introduced into the lifestyle almost by accident. I was a 20 something, young stud in a university town, who was living life large. I was typical. Parties, clubs, etc. etc. This was in the middle 70's, the ...
I sit in the dark as he paints his portrait of us Dark reds and purples, form into bodies in lust He whispers in my ear of dark deeds he will soon do My wrists and ankles shackled, flogging me black & blue Pain for pleasure are his wicked promises in the dark hour His mouth will consume me, my sweet flavor he will devour He will claim me as his with adoration and a collar I will worship him every day calling him Sir with honor ...
I have come to a conclusion. I don't want to get old. Now, I understand the realities of life. Aging cannot be halted. But there is a distinct difference between aging and getting old. I have spent the better part of the last week in Florida on personal business. I have spent most of that time in one of the thousands of planned retirement communities in and around central Florida. Beautiful place. Landscaped, groomed and immaculately kept. All the ...
More memories…specifically of this summer when so much changed. You telling me about your fishing trips…sending me silly cat pics when I was completely stressed. Encouraging me in my plans….all the selflessness that defined you. Even in your final message to me…telling me not to be sad and to never regret…that you didn’t want to be forgotten. As if I could ever forget you. I realized what a journey it was…beginning with passionate obsession that flamed, and ending ...
I recently was asked by a new member on the forums what the implications of the {} tags were that are seen on some peoples user names. I started to give the short usual answer that comes to mind that it is a sign that they two are involved in some kind of D/S relationship. Then I thought better of it. I am constantly railing against those who make to light of the seriousness of online relationships so I decided that I should examine my own princiles and attitudes toward these connections that ...
i was looking through memories today and found a note you sent me several years ago. All we went through…all the changes, good and bad. It hurt to read the words, but the smile came anyway. You encouraged me, mentored me…took care of me through so many things. Most of all you loved me, and i don’t think i appreciated you nearly enough. You always thought i was crazy to save all our words and conversations…but i think now you might understand. They are not all i have of you…your gifts through the ...
== Results from BDSM test: What kind of sexual deviant are you? == 99% Dominant 98% Rigger 97% Master/Mistress 96% Voyeur 96% Owner 95% Daddy/Mommy 95% Brat Tamer 88% Degrader 87% Sadist 84% Primal (Hunter) 69% Exhibitionist 63% Experimentalist 40% Ageplayer 34% Non-monogamist 12% Vanilla 9% Masochist 2% Pet 2% Brat 2% Rope Bunny 2% Girl/Boy ...
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