Punish when upset

[slaveangel{HM}]

oops i realised i wasn't meant to post this here, my apologies ~a

When I did the wrong thing, He always told me to kneel before Him and make me retell what I did wrong. Not only to humilate me and make me regret my action more, but also to allow Him time to gather His thoughts.

The disappointment in His eyes was enough of a punishment for me. But generally I am a good girl so punishing me is something that is truly rare, so to see that disappointment throws me in turmoil, and He knew it.

As I retold what I did, He took that time to calm down and refocus, and also give Him time to think of what to do with me.

Often the mental thing of Him stepping away and leaving me there, was torture enough. He knew it was terrible for me, that a) I disappointed him and b) Him making it sink in by not giving me His attention while He gathered His thoughts.

I take a punishment when I know in my heart I have done wrong, and I have disappointed Him so badly. It just feels right, that need to make ammends. I am not the kind of person who gets punished just for the sake of it. Don't get me wrong, there is a difference between pleasure play, and punishment. You can do the same activity, but it is the intention of why you do that activity that determines the feelings and situation at hand.

[Guest 91108]

I have found punishment is less punishing than letting her be upset that i am.
Perhaps igoring for a time, or restrictions should work more and give me cool down time if i am truly upset. not just for a few hours either....But that is my current situation. a longer time out.