Hi imadom....I just wanted to say I am sorry that things didn't turn out the way you wanted for you and your sub. But I am sure that a lot of Doms and subs have gone through what you have described, or at least the losing part...with just maybe a different background story. But if she was or seemed to be lying or hiding things from you, then that would not have made for a good relationship anyway, imho. It is always hard to lose someone you love...I know...I have been there. But try to focus on the positive things she brought to you. And remember this quote...Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I got that one from a friend...and it has helped me through some rough times. I hope it will help you!