childhood signs of submissive tendencies

[thewhorenextdoor]

i used to cut myself also in a super masochistic/suicidal way - it's a sign of progress to me that when i see my scars now i find them repulsive. i'm not some model for mental health but i would say you should be "concerned" if you're just putting a different name on the same old habit... plus it is, objectively, a bad habit, know what i mean?

[pinkdusk]

I used to tease and push the limits on a guy friend... until he would pin me to the ground and often put me in a an arm lock or something else. But he always overpowered me, and I remember his voice whispering in my ear demanding me to beg for release or to apologize. When I look deeper into it he wasn;t the first, but he was the best and now as an adult I wonder if ever bcame the sadist top he was meant to be lol...if only to meet him again